Something Precious

I befuddle earned recently that sometimes we lose something to gain something. I sop up go through a loss that was so full-bodied that it was my belief that it would never end. I recently was blessed to have a mail recent grandchild a female child. This little girl could non have come at a bring out time in my life. Brianna Scott was born on November 30. 2010 at 814 pm. This could not have been recrudesce timing. Three years ago one of my grandsonss hung himself and now lives in a vegetative state. I lost all exult around the holi mean solar days, because this little male child always wanted to be with me during the holidays.I lost the holiday spirit after this tragedy happened I found myself in a deep depression state. There was days when I did not want to do anything but cry. I prayed to no end for a miracle to happen. I finally had to accept that here would be no miracle this time. I experienced so many different emotions on a daily basis and for the life of me I coul d not get a grip on any of my emotions. I begin to question whether or not I could have done something to prevent this tragedy. It took intense therapy to find my way out of this hole. There was zilch I could have done to prevent this tragedy.I was simply co-existing prior to Brianna being born. This little girl has no idea what her birth has brought into my life. I feel as if God has given me a new joy and a fresh breath into my life. I look at this little girl and my intent smiles again. When I talk to Brianna and tell her I love her she looks at me and smiles. I know that Brianna is only half-dozen weeks old but I truly trust she understands me when I tell her that I love her. I sometimes catch myself wondering if my grandson would be jealous of her. I believe that I knew this little boy better than his own parents. He would not have been jealous but instead embraced her.Chances are I would have had to ask him to move over and let me have some time with Brianna. I do indeed b elieve that Brianna is something precious sent to me by God to ease the pain that I have been forced to live with. If you could see this little girl you too would believe that she understands when you tell her that you love her. I always tell her how precious she is and that she has brought unspeakable joy to my life. I wish that I could put into terminology how much this little girl has done for me emotionally. I have joy once again and believe it or not I actually celebrated the holidays.I did not have a tragic moment for a change and took the time to thank God for such a precious give way. This is the gift that keeps on giving. If someone had told me that when this little girl was born the pain I was enduring would ease up I would have called them a lie. I now can live with the pain and my heart doesnt ache as much as it did prior to Briannas birth. I can get threw the day now without crying and feeling so empty. I look forward to keeping this bundle of joy now. Even though sh e has her days mixed up with her nights I would not change a thing about her. After all Brianna truly is something precious to my whole family.